love? hate? a pleasant surprise

i don't want to see you
ever again
but i'm too scared to leave you
i'm too scared to face the unknown
i'm too weak to leave
i know i could always stay home
i know i could always just ignore that you exist
i would give back everything you've given me
i would give up everything you would give me
i'm far happier without you
i've been never so annoyed with anyone in my life

you're needy
you're nasty
you're disrespectful
you're course
you're ungrateful

and at the same time
i know that you need me
i know that you like me
i know that you mean to be nice
i know that you want to liked

but i'm glad to have a break...
unexpected and welcomed
a pleasant surprise

And although i know the weather can be brutal
often a murderer
often a killer
i am thankful for the peaceful snow that has fallen
for i see the silver lining of the cold, gray clouds
and so do a few hundred others
who are known only by their titles
misters and misses

bliss does not describe
so joy does not describe
elation does not describe
ecstasy does not describe
how glad i am to be away from you

who wants to plan a vacation? i need a planned vacation...in another country.